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Clark Kent/Superman/Kal-El

bravenewfear — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 05:08:02 +0000

I am head over heals for clark kent.

i always had a thing for the big blue boy scout but this intense passion for all things superman is new.

i want to know everything about superman, read every comic, watch every movie and show that ever mentioned superman or one of his clever pseudonyms.

i’m trying to understand what i mean by this::

its like this…superman is one extreme and clark kent is the other. superman has all the best qualities of one world and clark has all the best qualities of the other; combined they make the perfect guy for me..or for anyone really because having all those sides makes him easily relatable.

its super sad for lois because she can never have all of the qualities and personality aspects at once.

does everybody want someone who is shy, smart, and introverted yet brave, protective, and confident?
or am i the only one who can’t choose between a clark and a superman?

am i selfish to think i can have it all?

HMMMMMMMMM……

untitled.

bravenewfear — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:48:47 +0000

lately i find myself in desire of a legacy. over the past year i’ve been thinking greatly of my future. my future home, job, interests, lifestyle…i think of my potential husband [this is extremely perplexing because, all throughout my childhood up until now, i had absolutely no interest in falling in love or anything of the sort. it's quite extreme, my pondering is. it seems i've caught myself up in possibilities. i even wonder what i might where on a day to day basis. i imagine myself quite successful; i even collect vintage jewelry! i even save pictures of things i want someday. i know that other women have desires, dreams, fantasies, and plans but really i must keep my feet on the ground and my head out of the clouds, no matter how magical and whimsical a life of fantasy is. i mean really! i even went window shopping for lingerie, just imagining buying it in the future. i've not been reading and writing enough. i fear my brain is wasting. i fear everything. i wish that someday i might never have another secondthought. never a regret or worry. never an anxious, palpitating heart. i can see that i worry for no reason, but i'm no match for this virus, eating cavities in my passion. someday this fear will command my heart, along with my head and at that moment i should as well be dead, to not have will over my heart. i'm forever grateful for my family, they're the only ones who can calm my irrational fears. i cannot trust my friends; not a single one of them. in all honesty, i have few left! i see them seldom and as we are coming into adulthood we have made great changes and strides; we are no longer able to relate to eachother. i hope someday i might have a friend i can trust with my deepest secrets.

i dream of having a home, a real home. that provides sanctuary, safety, solitude, and comfort [all of which i feel completely robbed of]. my life in it’s entirety, i have never had a lonely place. somewhere quiet where i can dream aloud. i’ve always wanted a secret garden. the home i dream of is like my secret garden. i imagine having horses and a stable. to me, horses represent ultimate freedom on Earth in a way.

it feels to be afternoon but the clock says it’s about 7 o’clock in the morning! a well long day i’ve had already! these past few days i’ve been thinking much about the message to that little girl Virginia, assuring her there is a Santa Claus. it’s a beautiful thing to live by.

“did you ever see fairies dancing on the lawn? of course not, but that’s no proof that they are not there.”

sin fang bous, seabear, iceland.

bravenewfear — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:45:44 +0000

i am a bit confused. about a week ago i stumbled across this amazing new song i had never heard before. it was in a style i’m not familiar with. it was called ‘advent in eve’s garden’ by SIN FANG BOUS. it sounded somewhat techno-ish and it was so pretty. there is hardly any information on their myspace except for that it says they’re from iceland. OF COURSE THEY ARE!!!! i’m finding myself quite obsessed with icelandic music as of late.

theres a whole FLICKR album of this awesome mixed media artwork its just as amazing as the music.

the music is amazing. the art is amazing.
it’s a new project by the singer of seabear.

in the past few days more songs have been posted.
they are all amazing.

i think the music should be world famous forever and ever. and all other music should be outlawed for making absolutely no effort [by this i mean rap and hip hop]

oh and btw, i totally love beirut [the band] and that one song NANTES.

since when are all the good bands from iceland??? that is so strange.

no what else? i hope nobody ever reads this. so i can keep the amazing music all to myself. well…and the other people who already know about it. which is not very many people, actually! i was quite surprised a few months ago when i mention icelandic music that none of my friends knew what i was talking about.

i want to move to iceland.

or some desolate confined bit of soil. isolated from the rest.